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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Delicious and Fragrant

"God can never make us wine if we object to the fingers He uses to crush us with...when He uses someone whom we dislike, or some set of circumstances to which we said we would never submit, and makes those the crushers, we object." - Oswald Chambers

I read these words this morning from an Oswald Chambers devotional book. How wise this man was. How in tune with the Lord. I desire to be like this, but I know it takes an effort on my part. God is there waiting for me, all I have to do is seek.
These words ring so true in my ear. How often have I objected to one form or another His rebuke? I, like an Israelite complaining in the dessert, whimper and wine quite often about this load and that load...one circumstance that is difficult and another.
I have a dear friend who right now is going through the most trying time in her young life. But I do not hear her complaining. Instead, I hear and see her leaning on God all the more. I wonder what I would do if I were in her shoes? I have to admit, I don't think I would handle it with the grace that she is. God is making her into a delicious, ripe, sweet wine...and the fingers He's using to crush her are cruel and unfair. She's not a hard marble trying to escape the crushing...no, she is a malleable grape, yielding under the harsh force of the chosen fingers.
So, Lord, let me be a yielding grape, not complaining of the call Y0u have for me in my life. Let me submit to the fingers who crush me into a fine wine. I do not want to be a bitter, unripe wine, Lord, but a wine that is delicious and fragrant.


Monday, September 27, 2010

Oh How I Love Thee...Let Me Count The Ways

I am about to begin week 8 of homeschooling Kameron. It has been a blast to say the least! I had no clue just how much it would bring Kam and I together. I've read things other moms have posted about why they love homeschooling, and I've decided to write my own. Hopefully you'll read this and add your own comments! It will be interesting to see what people come up with.

Reasons I LOVE HomeSchooling

  • We can stay in our PJs as long as we want in the mornings.
  • Kameron doesn't care what my hair looks like.
  • There is no rush to get out of the house in the mornings.
  • We are done each day by 11.
  • We can do our reading outside.
  • He gets the individualized help he needs.
  • He can wiggle and squirm and not get punished for it.
  • I am his main influence...so words that come out of his mouth usually reflect my words, not some kids' from the playground.
  • He hasn't gotten sent to the office once this year for throwing wet paper wads in the bathroom.
  • We can have spontaneous tickle fights after history or science.
  • His handwriting has improved DRASTICALLY!
  • I'm getting to do what God has given me the pleasure and honor of doing...being Kam's mom.

What about you? Leave some comments and let me know what you love about homeschooling!

Friday, September 3, 2010

It Is Well...

So, a few Sundays ago, I did something I haven't done in 14 years. I played my clarinet in public --at church. It went really well and I felt great about it. This time it was different though, because I felt like I was glorifying God through the whole experience, not my talent. The song I chose to play I have recalled many times over the last two weeks. The verses, words, rhythm and meaning keep looping in my head. "It Is Well With My Soul" was my song of choice. When I chose it, I had no clue how much I would need to rely on those words in the weeks to follow. You may be thinking..."that is such an old hymn...give me something more relevant." Have you REALLY analyzed the words? Have you taken the time to hear what they say and apply them?

  1. When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
    When sorrows like sea billows roll;
    Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
    It is well, it is well, with my soul.
    • Refrain:
      It is well, with my soul,
      It is well, it is well, with my soul.
  2. Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
    Let this blest assurance control,
    That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
    And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
  3. My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
    My sin, not in part but the whole,
    Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
    Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
  4. For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
    If Jordan above me shall roll,
    No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
    Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
  5. But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
    The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
    Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
    Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
  6. And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
    The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
    The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
    Even so, it is well with my soul.
I've put in bold some of the words that have meant a lot to me. We all go through things. It is how we handle them that makes a difference. The words to this song comfort me because I know, "Whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say/ It is well with my soul."
There have been many things in my life I have questioned. Why would the Lord let something happen to me that would cause me harm? Why do things KEEP happening to me, over and over? I know some people who seem to live in a bed of roses...always having everything work out for them. They seem to walk in God's favor all the time...never a moment of trouble. I know this isn't really what their life is like, but when I compare it to mine, it is what I see.
Over and over again, (I am not exaggerating...truly...) there is a trial in my life that I keep getting faced with. It is as if I am STARVING and someone KEEPS dangling a mouth-watering steak in front of me, letting me smell it - my taste buds longing for relief from the fast --only to jerk it away once I have been nice and tempted. I have prayed about this specific thing over and over again. Just when I seem to have a grasp on it...there is the steak again. This "steak" for me is something in my life that most people have control over, but the Lord has chosen not to grant me control over this. Instead, He has designed me to be at the mercy of others for this. And we all know how in control I like to be ;0)
Throughout this past week of trials --I have realized that the Lord does love me, and that it is ..."Well with my soul!" I thank Him for his provision. I count my blessings and I am hoping this experience will just draw me closer to Him.